And they're off!

Thursday morning I went in for my suppression check. Everything came out a.o.k. Just like Goldilocks, nothing awesome, nothing bad, right where I expected. Ute lining is at 3 something and I've got 7 lil follies waiting for action!! J calls them The Potentials. Haha.

I ripped off my last damn androdem patch Thursday night and stuck myself for the first of many pokes. Good news (cuz there always has to be a bright side in this shit) is after 2 days I have no bruises!! I looked like a frkn pin cushion last time. U saw the pic, it was ridic!

Right now I'm doing 2 vials menopur, clomid, & steroid. I'm feeling pretty well. I have noticed my fuse is A LOT shorter than usual. And by a lot, I'm talking like I-never-bitch-at-anyone-about-anything to omgwtfdidudo! I've been keeping up with yoga & acupuncture and also started guided meditation. This has helped my mood tremendously! Since I've been feeling so good & zen I am able to notice my craziness and keep it in check... hopefully, for the sakes of everyone around me and for J's sanity, I can keep that up for the next 11 days. :)

As for the androderm.... the cream smelled Yuck and I was petrified for anyone to touch my arms. Ya know, cross contamination to another person could be detrimental to their health! The patches didn't smell but man did they irritate the shit out of my skin. I am at the opposite end of the spectrum when it comes to skin sensitivity. Yet I can still clearly see outlines of where 3 of the 5 patches were stuck to my leg... not to mention I couldn't move At All or the damn things would pull cuz they're so big. Ugh! Glad I'm d.u.n. with those suckers!!

Next appointment: Monday. This'll be our first follie check on stims. We are hoping & praying that 3rd time is the charm! Think positive thoughts for some healthy growing follies and all at the same size! YeahYeah!

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Big day today.... I decided it was time to retire my BBT thermometer.  I maybe almost shed a tear as this means our TTC adventures have hit a turning point.  A point where the future holds no more daily temps.

Of course I don't need to temp while cycling.  And I am going to LURVE <3 sleeping in on Saturdays without a 5am alarm.  I get the feeling that efforts to conceive naturally are futile.  Thus why I decided it was time!

It was an open casket ceremony  ;)

Calendar in hand, woot!

Got our calendar last friday at J's appointment! Woot!!  I started Testosterone gel last week and Estrace on Sunday.  I'll prime for 2 more weeks until my suppression check on March 28.  Tentative retrieval: April 8.  Holy cow!

I'm super excited that The Time has finally come but also very very nervous.  I've never had anxiety before but every time I'm in Dr Rockstar's office I find myself very stressed out.  I've been trying to stay really positive and I think this time around we have so much more going for us.... I'm just really scared to get that huge BFN let down again.  I am seriously scarred from our previous ivf's!  I asked some peeps for suggestions and will try some....  lavender oil, music distraction.... I think the only thing that will truly help is when its all over.  I'm still doing yoga & acupuncture so will still do that, of course.  Someone said to try not to think about it unless I have to... kinda hard when I'm tracking daily supplements, morning gel application and evening estrogen doses.  Ugh.  I WISH I didn't have to think about ivf every damn day!

Hopefully some day soon I won't.  Hopefully soon I'll be able to think about diapers & cribs & big wheels & dance lessons.

I have a problem....

...With supplements!!

When I quit Chinese herbs I did a little happy dance. I thought I was off the supplement bandwagon!

Wrong-O.

Last night I had a rush order to Amazon and for (I'm pretty sure) the first time in my life, I paid for expedited 2 day shipping. See, yesterday morning I noticed the bottle was seeming a little empty. After counting pills I realized I only had 2 more days of CoQ10 left! FCK! These are my miracle drugs! My hope in a bottle! Estimated ship date is Tuesday (amazon fail) so I divvy up evenly what I have left. Even though my dose will be less than half of my usz dose, I figure it'd be better to have some everyday rather than finish out today at normal dosage then go without until my special package arrives. I dont want e~g~g withdrawals. Shit.

I'm sure you're wondering, "so how many supplements DO you take?"

For 6 months I took 4 supplements that equated to 14 pills/day. I also took a disgusting* liquid herb 10 days/month.

Then Dr Rockstar said 'no more herbs for you! Take these instead.'

I've upped the ante to 6 supplements at 19 pills/day plus royal jelly in my tea & bee pollen in my protein shake.

* it tasted like Jagermeister, only better, because I had to drink it warm. Blech!


Hi, my name is M, and I'm addicted to hope.

EDIT 3/30: for more info on these supplements and what YOU should be taking, go to http://www.lifechoicesandfertility.com/